Frame of Mind

You don't know what you need, because you know that what you need is inside of you.
No other can give you what it is, only you are able to give it to yourself.
You don't know what you need, but you know what you don't need.
You can feel it in a deep part of you, it screams "this isn't it".
You ignore it, but it gets louder.

Each passing hour it becomes more discontent, begging for what it needs.
Finally you break down asking what it needs, all it replies is "not this".
You can't ignore the screams, you have to get what you need.
Frantically you search, but always comes "not this".
You can't do it, you're going to break.

Absolutely nothing feels right in your life, everything and everyone is wrong for you.
It wrenches inside of you, tearing a hole through your soul.
You feel life suddenly leaving, forgetting you exist.
You gasp for help, reaching to anything.
"Not this", "not this".

You can't do it anymore, you're going to explode and nothing will be left of you.
"Not this", "not this".
You've fallen to your knees, begging it to answer what it needs.
"Not this", "not this".
You try to get angry, you have to feel something, anything.
"Not this", "not this".

You lay dying, nothing left to keep going, defeated by yourself.
"Not this", "not this".
 You remember, in the past, how you lived.
"Not this", "not this", "I need that".

You drag yourself to that old place, it's dusty, but it's safe.
You see remnants, what you needed, but not anymore.
You go to the unopened door, there always is one, always.
You enter, finally peace, you begin to stand up,
Those long forgotten words shake your mind and body "thank you".

You see yourself, your mind, your soul.
It's broken, twisted, injured.
It isn't right, you can see it, something is off.
You grab ahold of yourself, and it takes you a step to the left, not allowing its feet to follow.



Confidently and Honestly,
D.

TL; DR: Sometimes freedom is simply a change in perspectives a way.